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Hey Dad…
This is a call I did not expect.

Sorry, Son.
Is this a bad time? I don't mean to be inept,
it's just been a while see we last spoke.
Over a month I think, correct?

Yeah, I’m sorry for that.
I have been so busy with the baby.
I also started a new job last month,
so to say the least, things have been crazy.

Oh boy.
Well, you were always anything but lazy,
but I still wish I could help out
and hold my grandson,
he is all I can think about lately.

Yeah… I'm sorry to say, but I am unconcerned.
Everything I know wasn't taught, but self-learned.
I wasn't given anything,
everything I earned.

The things I would do to get the years back I burned.
I wish I could go to the moment that everything turned…

But I have spent to many years feeling sorry for myself,
and in the future is where I must now hold my hope.
An outlook that came when I hit rock bottom,
a realization that only comes at the end of a rope.

I’m glad your not focused on the past and can finally see the grand scope,
but my son will be 18 by the time you get out
and you will be on a downward slope.

I don't know If I want him to form a connection that brief.
Not to mention, a connection with a murderous thief…

That's fair.
I have given you no reason not to believe that motif.
That last thing I want to give you is another ounce of grief,
but can you not at least see I'm trying to turn a new leaf?

It’s not like you have a choice, and that’s not even the aim.
If you didn’t have decades to sulk alone, would you even feel this shame
Who’s to say things wouldn’t be the same.

It took me time to realize I had only myself to blame.
I got wrapped up and couldn't see I was losing the game.

For years of work, the shame is all I have to show,
so just like trying to reconcile with you…
I will never let that go.

Well If that day ever comes they allow you to walk out,
I will be there to meet you,
that you don't need to doubt…

But where I then take you, and where you send your remaining days,
will be the conclusion to a life without you,
and the end of this phase.

It is your choice son. One I understand completely.
You are all I have left, and I love you so deeply.

My haunted past will forever be with me,
and that dark cloud will always be,
so I understand I'm not something
you want your family to see.

You are…
Or where…
I dont know, I have to think…

My warm memories don’t match the ones put down in ink.
It’s a constant juxtaposition,
feelings change in a blink,
but I have to be firm for my family
and how you’re better off a missing link.

Im proud of you Son, but my time is almost up.

It is the only thing I can give,
but I no my love is not enough.

You grew up hard, the world turning you so tough,
so I know you will stand tall
for life, at time, is bound to be rough.

You are forever in my heart
and even on the dat it stops,
my last thought will be of you,
as my final tear drops

Thanks… Pops.

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